Sometimes, all we can do is TRY
Sometimes, all we can do is TRY
Happy New Year! I cannot believe it’s been two whole years since I started my blog! Where did all the time go?
I'm not huge on following a rigorous schedule or the idea of resolutions either. As I celebrate two years of sharing my feelings on the internet, I’ve decided to dedicate this post to myself. This is advice I want to give myself instead of describing something interesting or share a thought-provoking story.
Unlike the Red Queen's eccentric view though, I want to share a set of 7 things I think are very much possible for myself to attain: (Before and after breakfast too, and if possible, always and forever 😁)
Here's Monachini’s list of 7 rules: Adhere, Adopt, Adapt!!!
Here’s a motto I want to sincerely try and adopt from now on: At any point, no matter what the circumstances, sometimes all I can do is just try. Just keep trying. Just keep swimming in the swirling currents of life. I don’t need to be perfect or set the expectation of achieving a grand goal in the end. Because, at the end of the day, my efforts do matter, even if they don’t lead to something that can materialize as an achievement.
There is this ginormous conscience in me that keeps me level-headed day in and day out, grounding me to my set of morals and the things I believe in. There’s a reason I am the way I am. Yes, sometimes trying to adhere to my set of convictions doesn’t always result in the best of outcomes. But there’s this constant guide in my mind about what’s right and what’s important to me. That said, there are moments when I feel overwhelmed by comparisons to others. It’s easy to look at people who seem to have it all figured out and wonder why things aren’t aligning for me. But here’s the thing: I don’t need to compare. They probably weren’t as sincere or as stressed out about things as I was. And now, I simply do not care about any of that. I’ve always taken things too seriously, and I’m constantly working on changing that. Not to fit in, or because things aren’t working out, but to achieve the overall sense of personal development I’m craving. Grades and classes matter, but to what extent? There’s so much more to me than academic validation, and it took me a looong, looong time to realize that. I am worthy in my own right. I have my quirks, my skills, and this strong need to keep trying that’s led me to where I am today. I don’t need to answer to anyone about my outlook on life or the decisions I’ve made because no one knows my situations better than I do.
Not to sound too preachy, but everything that happens, happens for a reason. And if things didn’t work out the way I thought they would, that’s completely fine too. I’ll keep trying to believe that, as long as I can. I’ve encountered various situations where I could manifest certain things I’ve desired, and sometimes, not so much. And you know what? It’s all completely fine.
I’m still not that old, wise, or sagacious, but the experiences I’ve had so far have led me to realize that every moment I experience matters. All the highs and lows, every single decision has shaped me into the empath I am today. Yes, I have conversations with myself and ponder things. I have extremely long monologues and dialogues with myself internally. It has led to some interesting situations where I've often zoned out, with no one knowing how vivid, visually bright and verbally loud my thoughts are. Yes, I dream about the clouds, the stars beyond those ever-expanding galaxies, art, music, and just how pretty nature can be. Believe me, I’ve changed so much in the past couple of years. I realize the combined essence of all these changes when I encounter situations I would normally try to avoid or when I feel the endless pressure I used to put myself under because of having to endure them.
Sometimes, I'll have to force myself to do certain things even if they're hard and I don't really enjoy them because they'll prove to be worthwhile in the future. It's extremely hard, this process of forcing myself to dedicate every bit of my attention to it. But I'll try to remember that I just need to try. Because it does matter. What I mean is that the commitment of trying matters even if I perhaps wouldn't ever care about that thing again later on.
I'll eventually get to exactly where I need to be, doing what's exactly right for me then. It might be a while before those moments shape into existence and for all those events to line up in that perfect order, but again, all I can do is hope I'll get to find my niche and a sense of belonging in the environment I'm in. I've learned of things that I do really enjoy, along with those that I don't. And perhaps, I'll have to go through many of such things that I don't quite like if it means I could probably discover the ones I would.
If you'll never try, you'll never know. Thanks Coldplay!! :)
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